In the Mouth

This was written out of pure frustration amidst a period of housebound agoraphobia that lasted for a few years. I was trying to keep productive and wasn't really worrying about the reality of this ever being made. I had just read Eugene Ionesco's Rhinoceros a few weeks prior and it had really stuck with me. We shot 164 slated scenes in 11 days. We somehow found time to shoot the script and to constantly try new things.  Also, I just want to point something out- I’m not Merl. I think our primary fears are different. Actually, I don't think we were ever viewing him has someone with agoraphobia to be honest. But since my own personal experience has brought up the topic I would like to say something about that. Agoraphobia & panic disorder are not solely about one’s thoughts. That’s a bit of a misconception. Most panic attacks (different from anxiety attacks) come without a catalyst. There's almost never a moment to think before it happens. Thoughts come after, in response. Anxiety is a bit different than panic in that way; it’s inverted. Panic is a reaction from one's adrenal glands - sending adrenaline out to help you fight a bear that isn't in attendance. These glands are much closer to the stomach than they are the head. So most of the time you’re really not treating your head/thoughts - you’re learning to tolerate the adrenaline. I’m not really speaking about the film here; that’s just some food for thought.